One of those nights where everything just doesn't feel right.
When you feel the whole world's burden on your shoulder.
It's a matter of caring too much and not giving a damn at all.
Why is it so hard to find a balance?
Once I'm in the field, I care too much.
But once I'm out of the field, I couldn't be bothered at all.
It hit me yesterday during comm meeting that I didn't even put
in any effort of knowing the Year 2's
And the worst thing is that it didn't really hit me or affect me.
Why?
That's me when I couldn't be bothered.
That's me when it doesn't make an impact.
And that's the thing I hate about myself the most!
When things like this doesn't change me...
And when I'm in the field the slightest thing WILL affect me
It's getting annoying when I care TOO much
But the thing is that I have something to prove this year
That THIS TEAM WILL ACTUALLY MAKE IT THROUGH
That THIS TEAM WILL ACTUALLY GET A MEDAL
Please someone just give me a reason to hang on, to press on
Coz its getting tiring, really tiring.
Praying hard that you can actually watch my games.
May the odds really be in our favour.
I shall keep updating this blog coz one day I'm going to look back
and really laugh hard for all the nonsensical things that I'm typing here...
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